the family is gone.
today, life gets back to whatever sense of 'normal' used to be in this house.
last night, a friend asked, "what was the BEST part of your last 3 weeks?"
my answer?
just being together.
watching as we interacted.
watching our children play until their little bodies could hardly function,out of sheer exhaustion.
it's been 4 LONG years since all of the cousins have seen each other.
i have made a trip out to Jersey.
my siblings and i were all together to honor my grandmas life.
but still, we have not ALL been together for far too long.
for 3 weeks we played.
first a week with just me out in jersey, then them all here for 11 days.
even as i write this, i cry.
i miss them SO much already. this is NOT the way it was supposed to be.
like a 2 year old i want to drop to the ground and scream, "i want to live by my sister! why can't i live by my sister??? this is NOT fair.i hate this! "
can't you just hear it now?
it may be selfish and immature but that's how i feel right now.
jipped.
please, don't get me wrong. i KNOW that this is the way it's SUPPOSED to be.
i accept that.
but i don't have to like it.
not ONE bit.
we will continue to make the most of what we have but i'm just putting it out there.
this bites.
plain and simple.
there it is.
that being said,what sweet, lifelong memories we made.
i wish i could articulate how much i appreciated and LOVED this time.
this will, by far, be one of the greatest events in my life.
i am tired.
i am sad.
i am thankful.
i am blessed.
